My Top 10 Favourite Derp Crew Town of Salem Games of 2015

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Hey guys!

So indulge me here while I make a list of my top 10 favourite Town of Salem games this year. I made a steadfast effort this year to save all my favourite Let’s Plays into a playlist on Youtube and definitely one of my favourite series has to be the Derp Crew playing Town of Salem.

If you’re unfamiliar with Town of Salem, I made a post a long while ago about it that you can read here and familiarise yourself with. I used to be so addicted to this game late last year and earlier this year and played it continuously. It was so addictive; it feed the logical and curiosity-driven side of me. Long story short, it is a lot like the game Werewolf – or Mafia – or Polar Bear, depending on how it is called when someone probably taught you about it.

All of this being said, here is the countdown to my favourite episode of them playing it. I’m not going to describe any of what happens. Discovering the roles and what happens in the end is the best part after all. Plus, when I go back and watch this I want to be surprised all over again.

10. Grandma The GodFather (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 59)

9. MIND BLOWN: The Plot Twists! (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 29)

8. Pokemon Murder Theme! (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 86)

7. PART 100 SPECIAL!(The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 100)

Note: Referring to the first game only (0:00 – 20:48)

6. MY BEST GAME! (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 37)

5. THE TRANSPORTER GOD! (Town of Salem QUAD FACECAM w/ The Derp Crew Ep. 29)

And to watch it all unfold from another perspective: The Ultimate Mafia Plan! (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 30)

4. PIE WARFARE! (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 48)

3. The Fail Highlight Episode: ZePeePee and Kim Jong Un Dong (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 32)

Note: Watch 2:25 into the video till 4:53.

2. LoveMyNuts: The PERFECT Game (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 78)

1. How To Get a BoyFriend (The Derp Crew: Town of Salem – Part 61)

And to watch it unfold from Ze’s perspective: THE EXECUTIONER’S CHOICE! (Town of Salem QUAD FACECAM w/ The Derp Crew Ep. 58)

Well, that’s all from me! Hope to come back to these videos next year and watch them all over again. And, while this list is mostly for my amusement, if you end up watching all of the episodes, do let me know which one you would consider your favourite. 🙂

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

2015 Update: My Top 5 Favourite Female Beauty Youtubers

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Hey everyone,

I know, it’s surprising. I haven’t been blogging for about two months and now I’ve posted six days straight. Maybe consider this my version of Vlogmas – just without video, and less Christmas-related and more of a review of different things this year.

So, on 25 April 2014 I made a list of my favourite female beauty gurus on youtube and I realise that a lot has changed from that list since then. Therefore, I present to you an updated list of the female beauty vloggers I watch and love watching currently:

5. Wengie

Wengie is an Asian beauty vlogger from Australia and she’s most well known for her comparison make-up videos like the one above. I’ve recently moved away from Western foundation as my face base to Asian CC creams and it’s always interesting to see how the formulas are different, so her vids are really informative.

4. Suzie aka HelloOctoberxo

I can’t really remember how I found Suzie, but I really have been watching a lot of her videos because she is really personable and friendly. I’m more of a fan of her make-up videos, like the one above as opposed to her fashion hauls. Her style isn’t really up my alley, but I could watch her make-up tutorials forever. Plus she is so beautiful.

3. Zoe Sugg aka Zoella

Yup, Zoe still stays on my list! I feel like she is a staple, especially when it’s currently Vlogmas and I squeal in the middle of the night whenever I see her new video is out. She’s just so bubbly and every single video is just bottled-up happiness. So yeah, Zoe. I love to watch all her videos really – plus her second channel videos. Actually, I like her second channel videos more for some reason. They’re wonderful to just play in the background while I’m doing other things.

2. Poppy Rawson aka MeMyMouse1

Okay, Poppy is love. Poppy is so much love when it comes to beauty vlogging. I feel like she’s always on-point with all her choices when it comes to technique, make-up brands, camera angles and make-up hauls. Of course, it absolutely helps that she has such flawless skin; every single foundation, highlighter, bronzer and blush just looks amazing on her.

1. Tanya Burr

Personally, I’m not a huge fan of Tanya Burr – outside of her makeup tutorials. But if there is one thing that Tanya does amazingly it is to create makeup looks that are just breathtaking and so precise. So I would definitely put her in my number one list for beauty Youtubers.

Again, like last time, if you know anyone like these girls, let me know. Other than that I hope you yourself have discovered some wonderful new vloggers.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

Favourite Albums of 2015: American Beauty / American Psycho

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Hello guys,

It’s been a real long while since I’ve actually written anything specific for my “Thursday: my soundtrack” category. But since this is December and I am doing a round-up of things here and there, let me just share some of my favourite albums from this year.

I think ever since the extinction of cassette tapes and CDs, I haven’t actually been listening to artists according to their albums anymore, which is a shame cause that’s where I usually find my favourite songs – not from their breakout singles but from one of their other tracks. I have the habit of falling in love with the second last or last song in an album. Don’t ask me why, but I do.

For Fall Out Boy’s new album “American Beauty / American Psycho”, I just had to listen to the entire album – especially since they released the songs one after the other one night on Youtube and the lyrics were just so sharp and the melodies so catchy. Fall Out Boy has definitely solidified their place as such reliably amazing album churners.

So here’s my ranking of their songs off the album:

11. Fourth of July
10. American Beauty / American Psycho
9. Uma Thurman
8. Novocaine
7. Favourite Record
6. Irresistible
5. Centuries
4. Twin Skeleton’s (Hotel in NYC)
3. Immortals
2. Jet Pack Blues
1. The Kids Aren’t Alright

Honestly, I think number 6, “Irresistible”, onwards are just absolutely solid tracks that I would listen to again and again. “The Kids Aren’t Alright” and “Jet Pack Blues” are amazing emotional pop-rock ballads and “Immortals”, “Twin Skeleton’s” and “Centuries” are fist-pumping rock finishers that I’d be happy to dance to at the beginning or the end of a concert. And I won’t discount the rest either, ’cause if there’s anything I’ve learnt from Fall Out Boy albums, the more I listen to them, the more those forgotten tracks slowly crawl up to favourite status and the more the most immediately loved ones fall behind … or should I say out? Get it? Okay, I’ll stop.

You can listen to their entire album on their Youtube page, and remixes of the tracks above too. So check that out.

And till next time!

cumuloq ❤

My Ranking for 2015 Movies Caught in Theatres

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Hi everyone!

So, last year, around this time, I ranked the movies I watched in 2014 in cinemas. You can check it out here. This year I’ll be doing exactly the same thing. Last year I managed to watch twenty of them, this year, so far, I’ve watched fifteen. Personally, for me, the less movies I watch in theatres the better, especially if I avoid some really terrible ones – though that can’t be helped all the time.

Again, like last year, take note that the movies I’ve watched are up till now and not for the whole of 2015. Like last year, I’m missing out on the ones in December.

So this is how I’d rank these movies:

  1. Inside Out
  2. Mad Max: Fury Road
  3. Kingsman: The Secret Service
  4. Ant-Man
  5. The Martian
  6. The Theory of Everything
  7. Avengers: Age of Ultron
  8. Jurassic World
  9. Paper Towns
  10. The Hunger Games: Mockingjay – Part 2
  11. Pitch Perfect 2
  12. Insurgent
  13. Maze Runner: The Scorch Trials
  14. Into the Woods
  15. Fantastic Four

I have to say that this year there were a few surprisingly great movies I did not expect to love but completely did from the action genre, like Mad Max and Kingsman. And then there were some movies that were just downright disappointing like Scorch Trials and Fantastic Four.

Stay tuned for my list of movies I watched “out of theatres” next week! There’s a whole lot more this year and I’m honestly a lot more excited to share those ones with you guys, because I definitely struck off some great movies I’ve been wanting to watch in a long while.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

Announcement: 30 Day Song Challenge!

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“One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.”
Bob Marley

Hi everyone!

So it’s that time of the year when my challenges start coming out once more. Last year I did a 30 Day Book Challenge and then a 30 Day Movie Challenge, and some time further down a(n unlisted) 30 Days of the Doctor Challenge. This time round me, and my fellow blogger friend, Rhey of Sunshine will be tackling the 30 Day Song Challenge in March. So, starting next month, on the first, we’ll be answering the following song-related questions:

1. The last song you listened to
2. Last song you purchased
3. Favourite song at the moment
4. Favourite youtube artist
5. Favourite male artist
6. Favourite female artist
7. Favourite band
8. Favourite album
9. Live gig OR act you want to see
10. Guilty pleasure song
11. Favourite song from a video game
12. Favourite song from an advert
13. Favourite song from a TV show
14. Favourite song from a film
15. Favourite song from a musical
16. Theme song of your childhood
17. First song/album you ever bought
18. Album you found accidentally and love
19. Group you wish had never split
20. Song you want to play at your wedding
21. Song you want to play at your funeral
22. Song that reminds you of a specific event
23. Favourite mainstream song
24. Favourite funny song
25. Favourite foreign language song
26. Favourite sad song
27. Favourite pick-me-up song
28. Favourite song to dance to
29. Song you would recommend to everyone
30. All time favourite song

Giving credit where credit is due, these challenges, once more come from/are adapted from Heck Yeah Tumblr Challenges. And the questions, lists, and ideas come from that Tumblr site. Once again, if anyone is considering taking this challenge, let me know because I’d love to read your side of the challenge.

I’ll see you then!

cumuloq ❤

Books Read in 2014 Ranked

Hey everyone!

So if it hasn’t been apparent yet, I have finished my goal to read 25 books for 2014. Yay! So what I want to do in this post is to rearrange the list of books that I read this year from the best to the worst – a great way to review all the books I’ve read in a nutshell.

25. Insurgent by Veronica Roth (February)

Insurgent was definitely the worst of the bunch. Terrible character and plot development. I’m really not looking forward to the movie itself. As far as I’m concerned, I’m completely put off by the Divergent series. Even the lovely Shailene Woodley cannot save this.

24. Girl Online by Zoe Sugg (December)

Girl Online is a read for those who are huge fans of the Youtuber, Zoe Suggs. It’s a lighthearted read you can curl in bed with on a rainy day. Never to take too seriously – it’s basically a rom com in book form.

23. Looking For Alaska by John Green (March)

Back when John Green thought himself one with the teen crowd but made a terribly cliched attempt at a teenage story. Oh, what do teenagers like? Cigarettes, tattoos, skipping class, rebellion – great, let’s have that. Oh, what makes a book have substance? Divorce, abuse, rape, alcohol and drug overdose, suicide – yup, that sounds great. That’s what Looking for Alaska is.

22. Emily of Emerald Hill by Stella Kon (September)

Overall a decent play. But a forgettable one for me. Maybe better as a play than a read through.

21. Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? by Philip K. Dick (May)

I was really looking forward to this one, but again I have a feeling that it will be forgotten along with the above few stories. Maybe Blade Runner is a better movie, but K. Dick’s book was not really my cup of tea. I felt like two thirds of it I was waiting for something to start that didn’t.

20. The Death Cure by James Dashner (June)

A decent enough ending for The Maze Runner series. But I prefer the Mockingjay as a series ending. Another book I feel like I need to reread before the final movie to remember what exactly happened.

19. The Giver by Lois Lowry (July)

I have honestly yet to watch the movie. But I thought the book itself was a pretty decent dystopian story. I remember being fascinated by the Christian allusions in it. Overall a thought-provoking read. But I don’t think I’ll continue on in the series.

18. The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas by John Boyne (September)

A really easy read and in touched upon some distressing issues about the Holocaust and Auschwitz. I was so frustrated by the ending of this novel, but looking back on it, I feel like it was so necessary for the moral of the story. Only trouble I have is the portrayal of Bruno as a protagonist. He seemed more ignorant than a boy his age should have been.

17. Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher (March)

A better depiction of teenagers than Green’s Looking For Alaska – I felt like a decent portion of 2014 was spent looking for decent teenage novels. For this one I loved all the characters except the protagonist, which is a real odd feeling for me because I usually feel the closest with the protagonist. But, overall, I recommend it.

16. Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky (March)

I watched the movie a while back and decided to go to the novel to see if there was anything different. It definitely was different – if anything a little plain. I expected a lot more depth in language and character. But overall it was a decent book. More all-rounded than Thirteen Reasons Why.

15. Slaughterhouse-five by Kurt Vonnegut (October)

This book really made me think about how we perceive time and space. It was incredibly well-written in terms of the choice of words by Vonnegut and I loved the entire plot of Billy Pilgrim getting dislodged in the time-space continuum – and the entire symbolism of it.

14. Sold by Patricia McCormick (September)

Sold was really different for me. It touches upon the issue of child trafficking and it made me really hurt inside for Lakshmi. It is also incredibly misleading. Despite how easy it is to read, and how few words there are sometimes, it tells so much more than is on the page – and its subject matter is so difficult to get through. For these reasons, Sold is another must-read.

13. The Kill Order by James Dashner (October)

I didn’t really expect much from the prologue of The Maze Runner, but this one surprised me as to how much I did love it. I loved the world that Dashner created after the sun flares. And the unexpected twist at the end of the novel.

12. Fortunately, the Milk by Neil Gaiman (December)

I read this one in one night, two hours, on a cruise and was absolutely absorbed in the story. It is the perfect kind of magical realism children’s world that Gaiman creates. I would absolutely love to read this to my children one day before they go to sleep – or recreate my own reason as to why I was late to fetch the milk. 😉

11. Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman (July)

Neverwhere is definitely a more grown-up Gaiman novel that I loved. Honestly, I feel fortune to have read books that I generally loved this year and that I do not feel like I’ve wasted my time on. I loved the idea of London Above and London Below and that people can fall through the cracks and end up in an entirely scumbag world where you risk being forgotten and eaten by the rot. Gaiman is definitely an author that captured my heart this year – and the beautiful irony was that my New Year’s resolution for this year was a Gaiman quote.

10. The Maze Runner by James Dashner (May)

I feel like I have to put a majority of Maze Runner in my top 10 because I just absorbed this trilogy into my veins, like literal osmosis. It’s fast-paced, has so many twists and turns and a protagonist that I absolutely love-hated with a passion and a world that is just ugly to the core. I only wish for more character development.

9. Paper Towns by John Green (May)

Paper Towns took me by surprise as something I loved. After reading Looking for Alaska, I felt that The Fault in Our Stars was a fluke and that there would be no other good John Green book. Paper Towns renewed my faith that Green could write for teenagers. I liked the protagonist, I liked the plot. It had quotable quotes. I can’t wait for the movie.

8. The Scorch Trials by James Dashner (June)

I feel like The Maze Runner and The Scorch Trials was pretty much tied in love, but Paper Towns somehow managed to sandwich itself through – I don’t know what I’m saying now, it’s late and I did not expect that it would take so long to quick review 25 books (stupid stupid idea). But the one reason why The Scorch Trials wins over The Maze Runner for me is Brenda. Brenda was a great addition. And the landscape of the desert was just the grit the trilogy needed to make everything even more real and disgusting. Also, one chapter actually made me gasp and almost scream. I mean, I didn’t even do that for The Shining. But The Scorch Trials did that to me.

7. Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson (August)

Speak was an incredibly powerful novel for me. It spoke to me (oh my, here comes the unintentional puns). It tells the story of Melinda Sordino, who suffers from selective mutism after a traumatising incident (which I will not “speak” of). There were moments in this novel that really just yanked my heart out of my mouth.

6. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou (September)

So what inspired Speak was this novel, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings. I think it’s been a while since I’ve read a book that was just gorgeously written. If you want poetry in prose form, Maya Angelou is the goddess of poetic writing. There are so many lines in this novel that should just be memorised and recited when one needs freedom from racism, sexism and just from being a judged human being. Absolute love.

5. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green (March)

Gah, this book gave me the feels. And, yes, I cried. The Fault in Our Stars is not perfect. It has its – dare I say it – faults. But there were so many moments in this book that reminded me of my own life (and I’m sure many of other readers’ lives) that I just have to put it up high on this list. I will remember many of these scenes more than others from other books on the list. Augustus Waters will forever live in these pages … okay, why am I getting so soppy in these last few reviews. Hush. Shut up.

4. Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes (May)

My good friend and fellow blogger, Rhey of Sunshine’s, favourite book. I decided to read it this year and I do not regret it. It was an incredible story of Charlie Gordon – a Forrest Gump-esque character – and his journey of obtaining intelligence through an experiment and the changes he experiences in his humanity and personality because of it.

3. The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman (November)

I feel like this novel in particular is going to inspire me in a lot of my writing in the future. The Graveyard Book was everything that I needed in a Gaiman’s novel. It is the tale of a character named Nobody (Bod for short), who lives in a graveyard for his own protection. This is another book I can’t wait to be turned into a movie. And I feel like if there is a gorgeous version of it in book form, I would totally get it and reread it.

2. The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman (June)

I think I will forever remember reading this book in one sitting in the library. I will cut this review short, but I feel like it was such a perfect novel, one of the best of 2014 – not only among the books I read, but I believe among all the other books of 2014. I feel like everyone should read this book if they were to read any book that came out this year.

1. Ready Player One by Ernest Cline (April)

This book definitely sits at the top of my list. Recently I’ve been listening to the audio book of it read by Will Wheaton and it honestly still leaves me so enthralled and gives me chills. I love the characters, I love the world and I love the plot. Whenever I read it I feel like I’m being given a crash course in American pop culture in the 80s.

Let me know what books you absolutely loved in 2014 and which ones I should add to my list for 2015. I’m contemplating of giving myself another goal for reading books next year. Maybe I’ll make it 30 – or keep it at 25 still (no need changing something that works). Either way, I just hope that I keep reading consistently. This year has been so much more amazing because of the above books I’ve read.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

My Top 10 Youtube Gaming Channels of 2014

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Hi guys!

The end of 2014 is upon us. I remember it being February and I thought to myself how long this entire year would be and how I felt like I would never make it to this point in my life – but then suddenly everything was swept up in a Wizard-of-Oz-esque tornado and right now I feel like Dorothy, having experienced an entire adventure that required more brains, courage and heart than I’ve had to muster before.

But, enough of that. Along with the entire experience of 2014, I’ve realised, after collating this list, that my taste in a lot of things have changed. And, I thought it apt to sum up my favourite Youtube gamers of 2014. Maybe the year after I can do this again and see how things change once more.

Firstly, a special mention …

Special Mention: REACT channel by the Fine Bros

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I love watching the kids/teens/elderly react to all kinds of videos, but this year, I believe the Fine Bros made a smart move (among many other smart moves) to create a channel in which their “victims” react to all sorts of other things. Among the things they react to, besides food, giving advice, and toys, is video games. For those who aren’t the usual viewers of gamer channels on Youtube. I feel like this is a good channel to start.

Now, let’s get to the actual list …

10. YOGSCAST Kim

I got into Kim’s Channel mostly because I was so addicted to Mario Kart 8 videos and all the usual channels I’m subscribed to had been exhausted. Kim of the Yogscast was exactly what I was looking for. After that, I watched a lot of her other videos and I’m absolutely in love with them. It helps that she plays the games I’m typically interested in, which include Steam Indie Games and Nintendo Games. She’s a good one to also start off with if you’re not much of a gamer yourself but like to watch a group of people have a fun time instead of having a fun time yourself. (‘Cause I’m sad like that sometimes.) 

9. Polaris

I think I’ve mentioned this before, but I mostly watch FriendZone from Polaris. There are some cast members I absolutely love, like Dodger, the occasional GameGrump(s), NintendoFanFTW, and CinnamonToastKen, but others I find are rather (excuse the pun) dodgy. And because of this they’re not higher on my list. But they have some really lighthearted content that you can just click on and be sure that you can waste a good hour or so with: playlists such as “Sort This!” and “Table Flip” and “Strippin’s Got Game Show”. And probably because of this, this gaming channel has dug itself a nice warm spot in my heart this year.

8. GassyMexican

For me, it’s been pretty difficult to figure out who to watch when there’s a huge group of gamers that are together and play the exact same game and will generally have to same audio but somewhat different footage. I’m not the type of person anymore who will waste their time watching the same played game from four or five different perspectives (cue meme: Nobody’s got time for that!) Before this year GassyMexican had been the gamer that I’d see from another person’s perspective and never gone on his channel to check out his. But, by the end of 2014, I’ve realised I really like this guy’s personality and now he’s crawled his way up to one of the few that I’d probably only check the perspective of.

7. Lets Play (RoosterTeeth)

Maybe a year ago the guys from Achievement Hunter would have been at the top of this list, but this year they’ve lost a significant amount of their charm for me. (Cue a completely unexpected rant:) I used to get so dang excited about their next Minecraft or Grand Theft Auto videos, but now I leave their Minecraft videos on my Watch Later list for weeks before I watch them and I don’t even blink at their GTA vids anymore. I avoid their comment section at all cost because everyone seems to be so negative. But that doesn’t mean I don’t love their content. Personally what I enjoy the most from this channel lately are the more random games they play. If anything those are the games I wish they’d play more. Personally I completely disagree with Geoff that their best videos are their GTA vids. If anything, they need to stop having Minecraft and GTA as continuous series – heck, even get rid of their Versus, Hunt and Go – and cater to the numerous other games out there that have yet to lose their charm from overplay.

6. SeaNanners

For such short 2-3 minute videos, SeaNanners’ Channel is amazing. His personality is infectious and you instantly fall in love with it, and this is probably why he has such a loyal following. My favourite videos of his include when he plays The Hidden and Garry’s Mod Prop Hunt. The only reason why he’s probably not higher up in this list is because he’s not much of an all-rounded gamer. Garry’s Mod is his territory and often you’ll realise you’re not watching it for the game itself but the creative conversations and mini-games he and his friends create within it – which is amazing sometimes and other times can be complete misses for me.

5. ZeRoyalViking

The above video is probably the weirdest and best videos I’ve seen from Ze. If you had asked me last year who my favourite Youtubers were, Ze probably would not have been on the list. In fact, he wasn’t someone I even probably could identify on Youtube – yet. But this year, I realise that I’ve been watching a lot more of his videos; videos such as DerpCraft (I preferred his perspective as he was the one who was actually building a lot of things – albeit bridges – among the others) and I felt like I’d been on an emotional journey with him as I watched his series on “My Ex-Boyfriend the Space Tyrant” – which was amazing beyond belief. And, because of these unforgettable moments, he’s climbed up to my 5th favourite Youtube Gamer of 2014.

4. Game Grumps

Game Grumps had some beyond amazing moments for me this year. A little lacklustre towards the end of the year, but incredibly solid videos in the beginning and middle of this year. I absolutely fell in love with the entire cast: Arin, Danny, Ross, Barry and Suzie. Their humour is always so on par. They have incredible stories and conversations during their videos and they really make subscribers feel like they’re part of one huge family. I would love to have Arin or Danny as an uncle, Ross as an annoying brother and Barry as a supportive one and Suzie as an amazingly creative and sweet sister. The only reason why they’re not higher on this list is because they cannot master “storytelling” video games, which is a real bummer. When you watch a Game Grumps video, be sure to be entertained by their fails and successes, but usually never with the backstory of the video they’re playing. And because of this, they cannot surpass my next favourite Youtube video gamer …

3. Markiplier

I’ll be honest and say I’m not that much of a loyal follower of him, I don’t watch every video he comes out with every day, every week of every month. But the three series that I did watch him complete, Outlast, Outlast: Whistleblower and Among the Sleep, were some of the best series I watched this year. Watching Mark play a game, you can tell he is so respectful and admirable of the video game developer’s craft; he is so immersed in the story, and some of the lines he screams out are genius. I can guarantee that I’ll start 2015 with a newfound respect for his videos and definitely catch more of them in future. I also personally appreciate that he takes the time to finish the videos and pay attention to details within them. If there were any Youtube Gamer out there who shows genuine appreciation of his career and the content he deals with, it’s Markiplier.

2. CriousGamers

It’s really difficult out there to find a Youtube gamer who has a good mix of everything in his/her channel and in themselves. ChilledChaos definitely does have a whole lot of everything that makes him one of my most go-to channels for gaming. It is (almost) safe to say that in this entire year I’ve watched at least one of his videos every day. Chilled has charisma, intelligence, is (sometimes questionably) a nice guy and is a more than decent gamer such that he won’t make you cringe when he takes on a game or goes in a competition against other gamers. He will make you cringe in other departments – such as his terrible cosplay of Princess Peach – but, that’s okay, you can skip those videos if they’re a bit too risque. All that aside, because of his consistency and dedication to his channel, he’s still up there (and probably will be up there for a long time) among my favourites.

1. OhmWrecker

This one is a surprise to me, because if I was told in the beginning of this year that I would put OhmWrecker before RoosterTeeth and ChilledChaos in a list of my top 10 favourite Youtube Gamers, I would have not believe you, but I admit, it’s true – very very true. OhmWrecker has the knack of finding games, like Don’t Starve Together, Depth, Evolve, and Town of Salem, that I will just watch the heck out of. Some nights have been spent this year going on marathons of Ohm’s videos, staying up to as late (or early) as six in the morning finishing off, just one more, Town of Salem video. What makes his videos even more appealing is the friends he surrounds himself with and the personality that he projects in his video. Because of all of this dedication to his channel, I would gladly put him at the top of my list.

And that’s it! That’s the list. Among all these amazing Youtube video gamers are hundreds of thousands of video games played, and a whole range of them to satisfy anyone’s cravings. If you had to follow just ten video gamers on Youtube, I suggest that you follow these guys. 😀

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

Being a Kid: Ask Questions

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Hey guys,

Currently listening to this awesome cover of “Don’t” by Ed Sheeran by Drew Tabor (that voice!)

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So I did something yesterday that I realised was somehow oddly satisfying that I want to share with you guys. Basically it began when I past by Reddits’ “Ask Like I’m Five” thread, which basically has a person asking a question and people on Reddit will answer the person like they are a five year old kid. This is an amazing tag for people who have really tough questions, esp. philosophical or scientific, and have people answer them in the most straightforward and simple way – oh, if only life was that easy and people we pass by on the streets or our teachers or parents or friends could be just as straightforward.

Well, this thread inspired me, for a day, to write down and take note of all the random questions I had in my head. Over the course of the day, I realised that I was asking and being more inquisitive about things around me, I was asking questions that I did not know I had – but genuinely wanted to know. This also made me feel more guilty. It made me guilty of the fact that I had never been proactive enough to actually find out the answers to my questions and that, at my age, I should already know the answers to them by now.

Such questions included:

  • Why does Stephen Hawking use the electronic voice when there are voices like Siri nowadays that sound a lot more humanlike?
  • If you Google Search “am i on the internet” what will show up?
  • Why do fingers prune in water?
  • Why do eyedrops need to be thrown away after a month?
  • What is the Lousiana Purchase?
  • Why do leaves need to be swept off the street?
  • Why do smells trigger memories?
  • How does toothpaste help burns?
  • How many times can you use a face mask in a week?
  • Why do humans ask so many questions?
  • What is swastika?
  • Why did the Nazis use it as their symbol?
  • What is the origin of the phrase “by the way”?

As mentioned, there was something oddly satisfying about listing down all the questions I thought in one day and to find out the answers. I guess it is visual proof that I am learning something useful in that day and that it is not all gone to waste.

And imagine the number of questions a kid asks!

Maybe I’ll make it a regular practice to spend one day a week actively noting down the questions I ask and writing down the answers. I found this a really enlightening experiment.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

30 Things Wrong with The Giver trailer

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After finishing off The Giver (the book) today I realised, with absolute indignation, how different the new Hollywood movie trailer is from it. And how I would so much more prefer if they stayed true to the book. ‘Cause the book has a lot of beauty in its simplicity. And no one needs another comparison to The Hunger Games. So I decided to list off all the things wrong with it:

  1. Jonas is supposed to be twelve. This is the most obvious thing about it. Can Hollywood not take a movie and put in pretty looking teenagers and call it a day?
  2. His eyes are supposed to be blue. If you’re going to get an actor that looks like he can barely act, at least make his eye colour right.
  3. The Giver’s eyes are supposed to be blue. Again, same thing.
  4. The houses, the bikes and the society as a whole aren’t meant to look modern.
  5. The film really shouldn’t have so much colour in it.
  6. There was never a “morning injection”.
  7. Jonas was never rebellious, even after getting all the memories.
  8. They always knew that their family unit consisted of “parents” who never gave birth to them, but they were always okay with this.
  9. Hence, Jonas and Asher has no reason to be stunned by this.
  10. Jonas never talks to Asher about rebelling against society.
  11. Jonas never asked to go fly a plane to the edge of the community.
  12. Jonas never spoke to Fiona about the morning injections (about skipping them), or anything against societal rules.
  13. He wasn’t even very close to Fiona.
  14. Therefore he definitely did not end up kissing her.
  15. Fiona is an important character – but nowhere near as important as the trailer suggests.
  16. Jonas never even had to subtly pretend that he did not take injections – his rules gave him the ability to.
  17. Asher does not end up a pilot.
  18. He definitely does not get asked by the Chief Elder to hunt down Jonas.
  19. The “edge of the world” is not supposed to be a thing – there’s only supposed to be a river at the end of their community and then other communities.
  20. The Giver does not live in a random house at the edge of the community – he stays at the annex near the house for the Old.
  21. Jonas is supposed to be lying face down when he receives the memories.
  22. The Giver should definitely look older.
  23. The Giver never gives Jonas the memory of music.
  24. The Chief Elder was never a “resistant” figure or enemy to Jonas.
  25. We never even hear much from her or the elders about the society.
  26. If anything the entire community and the elders are supposed to be oblivious and ignorant, not purposefully hiding the rest of the community from how it is ordered.
  27. Fiona will never get “released”.
  28. There is technically no sign of hostility in the community in the book at all.
  29. Jonas does not get “beamed up” into a plane.
  30. He definitely does not fall down a waterfall.

And, to add on to all these things that are incongruent to the novel, I need to also say that I absolutely hate trailers that basically summarise the entire movie in it – including parts that are supposed to be spoilers. So if you came here and read this list and thought I spoilt it for you, no I really really did not. Everything I mentioned here is in the trailer itself.

Still, at the end of the day I’m going to watch it, to see whether this adaptation is a worthy story in itself.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

The “I Can’t Wait” List

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Sometimes it’s easy to forget why we do what we do everyday, i.e. go to work, perform routines that we have the least bit of interest in. Sometimes it is up to us to put some meaning in it by picking up hobbies that make the difficult things and the bad things in life a little bit more bearable, i.e. reading, routines that make you happy to counter routines that make you sad – some controlled happiness, and some spontaneous happiness too. And sometimes the meaningless, bad things surprise you and become so much more fruitful than you previously thought they were worth.

Regardless, sometimes you need to make a list to remind you why you do these things, to not forget where you want to go and make those tiny steps to get there:

  1. I can’t wait to have an entire shelf in my own house where my books finally have a home. Currently their all in boxes and in different shelves around the house. I spent entire day once clearing space for them ’cause my parents threatened to throw them out or sell them away. I can’t wait to have an entire shelf of my own and be allowed to expand on it. I can’t wait to share my favourite books with my children.
  2. I can’t wait to have a shelf in my kitchen dedicated entirely to my favourite cereal. Actually, I can’t wait to just be able to do my own grocery shopping. I would love breakfast a thousand times more if there were a constant supply of cereal and milk to choose from.
  3. I can’t wait to organise a Saturday outing every week. I want children that are curious about the world around them and not fixated to a television – I’m not even sure whether I’ll even have a house that is centred around a television in the future. My parents have been too dedicated in sitting in front of television screens.
  4. I can’t wait to schedule monthly blackouts like the Michalaks family does. They’re a day when you turn off all the electricity and you just appreciate being with the people closest to you. I actually really appreciate what Steph and Hannah does for Grayson and how they make a conscious effort to be healthy and environmentally-friendly.
  5. I can’t wait to own a collection of board games so that when friends come over, there will always be something to do. I’ve already started a small collection now with Cards Against Humanity, Scrabble and Imaginiff. Agreed, it’s not a very cheap hobby – but it’s so rewarding to see a shelf of board games alongside a shelf of books.
  6. I can’t wait to find some time in my future to pursue a Masters Degree in literature. It’s a near goal that, when everything gets too monotonous or too much, I hope to find a way to be able to pursue my masters degree overseas. Maybe in the UK or US. But just a year for me to find myself and my passion once more.
  7. I can’t wait to have free reign over where I go in the world. I want to visit Santorini and France and Italy and Ireland and the United Kingdom and the United States and New Zealand and so many places that my parents will not allow me to go – yet.
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Source: hannahmaggs.co.uk

So there are a few things that I can’t wait for. I’ve been watching so many family vlogs on youtube – the previously mentioned Hannah Maggs, the Sacconejolies, Sprinkle of Glitter, Shaytards, and Sam and Nia – that I’ve been taking note of the things I love about their lives and the different things I’d like to apply to my own in the future.

I guess why I love to watch these videos is that it reminds me that the things that I do now eventually can lead up to a life similar to theirs with so many good things (not ignoring the fact that there will definitely be many bad things in the process and trials and tribulations). But life can eventually lead up to something wonderful.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

 

New: “2014 Books Read List”

Hi guys!

Just wanted to let you know that I made a new page on my blog called the 2014 Books Read List which is (as the name suggests) a list of all the books I have currently read so far since the beginning of this year. Check it out! (The link will permanently be on the menu above.)

So, as some of you may have already read in some of my posts such as the 30 Day Book Challenge ones, I have only just continued my journey of reading for pleasure rather than for studies. It’s been a really long time since I’ve felt like an actual bookworm/reader rather than a fraud who just happens to be good at literature and taking a literature degree. I am actually sourcing, now, for books that I want to read rather than have to read.

As you can tell from my reading list thus far then, a lot of the books I’m reading are ones that I have missed out on over the past (probably) six or seven years of not reading for myself instead of others.

What I want to ask from you, my dear followers and readers, is to suggest books for me to read that are must-reads or books that I have probably missed that are amazing over the past few years. I have my own “to-read” list in a little blank book, but it would also be wonderful if you made this list hundreds and thousands of titles longer! I plan to add a “to-read” list next to the “Books Read” list too.

So suggest away!

– cumuloq ❤

Overview of the 30 Day Book Challenge

Hello there readers and followers!

So this is the end of the 30 Day Book Challenge!

On Wednesday, 9th April 2014 I announced that I was going to do the 30DBC with my fellow blogger and friend, Rhey of Sunshine. Back when I announced it, I knew that this was going to need some careful planning, especially with my day job and my other time-consuming hobbies. Now that it has come to an end, the feeling is bittersweet. Sweet because, firstly, I’m partially thankful it is over and I can take a break, but bitter because I will no longer be in the routine of writing another challenge – because there are no more challenges.

I have to firstly say that I am absolutely proud of Rhey of Sunshine. I am proud that, in her even busier schedule than me, she has managed to come out with such wonderful posts on her blog. Some of her posts are so detailed and well-researched, I can only admire and aspire to write with such care as she does.

Secondly, now that it is all done, I would like to recap all my choices for each day, so you can get an overlook of how it went.

Day 01 – Best book you read last year: Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins
Day 02 – A book that you’ve read more than 3 times: Maximum Ride by James Patterson
Day 03 – Your favorite series: The Immortals by Tamora Pierce
Day 04 – Favorite book of your favorite series: Wild Magic by Tamora Pierce
Day 05 – A book that makes you happy: Simon’s Cat by Simon Tofield
Day 06 – A book that makes you sad: Le Dame Aux Camellias by Alexandre Dumas fils
Day 07 – Most underrated book: Wieland by Charles Brockden Brown
Day 08 – Most overrated book: Divergent by Veronica Roth
Day 09 – A book you thought you wouldn’t like but ended up loving: Butcher’s Wife by Li Ang
Day 10 – Favorite classic book: Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson
Day 11 – A book you hated: The Guide by R.K. Narayan
Day 12 – A book you used to love but don’t anymore: Sophie’s World by Jostein Gaarder
Day 13 – Your favorite writer: Jean Rhys
Day 14 – Favorite book of your favorite writer: Good Morning, Midnight by Jean Rhys
Day 15 – Favorite male character: The Narrator from Fight Club
Day 16 – Favorite female character: Hermione Granger from the Harry Potter series
Day 17 – Favorite quote from your favorite book: “A river of words flowed between us.”
Day 18 – A book that disappointed you: Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card
Day 19 – Favorite book turned into a movie: The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
Day 20 – Favorite romance book: The Fault in Our Stars by John Green
Day 21 – Favorite book from your childhood: Molly the Brave and Me by Jane O’Connor
Day 22 – Favorite book you own: The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy & Other Stories by Tim Burton
Day 23 – A book you wanted to read for a long time but still haven’t: (more than one)
Day 24 – A book that you wish more people would’ve read: the dictionary/thesaurus
Day 25 – A character who you can relate to the most: Quentin Jacobsen from Paper Towns by John Green
Day 26 – A book that changed your opinion about something: The Passion of New Eve by Angela Carter
Day 27 – The most surprising plot twist or ending: (more than one)
Day 28 – Favorite title: The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
Day 29 – A book everyone hated but you liked: Self Reliance and Other Essays by Ralph Waldo Emerson
Day 30 – Your favorite book of all time: Ready Player One by Ernest Cline
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To check out all the individual posts for these days, look for it in the drop down menu under “30 Day Book Challenge”.

Last but not least, I’ll be taking a short break for now and I have another challenge in mind in two week’s time. Meanwhile, let me know what you thought about this challenge. Also let me know if you’re interested in taking part in the next challenge with me. 🙂

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 29: A book everyone hated but you liked

Hi everyone!

So, this is the penultimate day of the 30DBC, if you have been reading all – or heck, most – of my posts for this challenge so far, I thank you for following along. Even more so if you’ve also been following Rhey of Sunshine‘s blog.

Today’s challenge is on the book I liked that everyone else hated. Personally, I don’t think this scenario exists. Unless you did like Twilight. Otherwise, it’s pretty much impossible for everyone to hate a certain book. There will always be the classic book camp and there will always be the teen novel camp, and those in between, and one may hate the other but mutual hate does not really exist. And if it did, there is a strong likelihood that I hated that book to, so that’s pretty much a moot point.

So the closest situation I could think of in which there was a text I liked but everyone seemed to hate is …

Self Reliance and Other Essays by Ralph Waldo Emerson

9781566196987_p0_v1_s260x420Okay, so let me begin with my story: It was the first year in uni and we had to read Emerson’s essays early in the semester for one week for my American Literature course. And, like the diligent student I am, I read them, specifically “Self-Reliance”, “Circles” (by accident, even though it wasn’t on the reading list but it was so good), “The Poet” and “History”, and I just remembered being sent into a transcendentalist journey.

The essays are like 19th century self-help or self-exploration articles. They spoke of living in the moment, being satisified with the person you are and to not be over-involved in the concerns of society but instead to be appreciative of what is around you.

And then I had to go for the lecture that week to discuss it, and I was so excited to discuss the philosophy behind it – and, to my utter astonishment, it seemed like everyone there just absolutely hated it.

They could not read past half a page, they did not understand anything Emerson was saying, they did not like the fact that there really was a clear argument to his essays (although that is not what essays are always about!) or they just did not like transcendentalism as a whole. And I could not understand it – who could not agree with what Emerson says? Even in the most superficial sense of his words?

Man is timid and apologetic; he is no longer upright; he dares not say “I think,” “I am,” but quotes some saint or sage. He is ashamed before the blade of grass or the blowing rose. These roses under my window make no reference to former roses or to better ones; they are for what they are; they exist with God to-day. There is no time to them. There is simply the rose; it is perfect in every moment of its existence. Before a leaf-bud has burst, its whole life acts; in the full-blown flower there is no more; in the leafless root there is no less. Its nature is satisfied, and it satisfies nature, in all moments alike. But man postpones or remembers; he does not live in the present, but with reverted eye laments the past, or, heedless of the riches that surround him, stands on tiptoe to foresee the future. He cannot be happy and strong until he too lives with nature in the present, above time.” 
― Ralph Waldo EmersonSelf-Reliance and Other Essays

To me, there are so many passages quotable from Emerson’s essays and so many concepts to reflect upon. But, I can, to some extent, understand their qualms with his writing. Emerson does not write in the most direct manner – sometimes you lose the point in his speech – you forget what exactly he is trying to say, he crafts sentences in squiggles rather than straight lines.

But isn’t that the point of it? It’s to not to be concerned with what has passed or what is in the future, but to live in the words themselves.

I would recommend anyone to try reading one of Emerson’s essays (Here, let me provide a link) – sit down in a comfortable place, preferably near a window that looks out at some greenery, and with a nice warm cup of coffee and tea, and just read. They aren’t long, and they don’t take long to read (they take longer to think about), and they are a goldmine of beautiful quotes and reflections.

So, I’ll catch you guys tomorrow for the finale – the last challenge of the 30 Day Book Challenge.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 27: The most surprising plot twist or ending

Hi guys!

So here’s another 30 Day Book Challenge. Today I’ll be looking at a book I’ve read with the most surprising plot twist or ending. Actually I’m thankful to have read a few books with incredible plot twist endings. I’m thankful because I’ve decided to turn this into more of a category list instead of a description of one book’s plot twist. I thought this would be best because I really don’t want to divulge the plot twist of these books. I’d rather not write down spoilers. Instead, I’d rather list down these books, hint at the plot twist and have you guys read them yourselves and get absolutely blown away by them.

So, here are the books …

1. Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk

Yes, I mentioned this book again but honestly this novel has the #1 plot twist! I did not expect to see it coming and, unlike some novels where the ending is a stretch, this one just fits in so well. Palahniuk should write detective novels. The beauty of this plot twist, after knowing it, changes the entire story – and not just for the events after, it changes everything you’ve read from the first page onwards. And isn’t that something remarkable? When you can literally never read this book the same way you did the first time you did. Yes, that is the magnitude of the Fight Club plot twist. You remember it for the rest of your life.

2. Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone by J.K. Rowling

Honestly, when reading this plot twist when I was a child, I thought J.K. Rowling was a genius – and I felt like an absolute dingbat – and a judgemental idiot. I feel like I can reveal this spoiler because so many people have either read or watched this, but then again, I’ll just keep it as a known secret between me and you, the reader who has read it. I know there are many plot twists that appear after this novel – but honestly, this was the first one that had me stunned. And the one I shall mention now.

3. Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card

Yes, another book I’ve already mentioned – actually in the book that disappointed me challenge. But, regardless of whether it disappointed me or not (only cause I expected it to be better than the movie), you can’t deny that the ending is a shocker and has so many implications to it. The fact that the General pulled a fast one on both Ender and the readers is worth the read. And I heard that the follow-up book had another plot twist in it as well worth reading.

4. Atonement by Ian McEwan

The ending to Atonement is heart-wrenching – and the novel’s ending and the movie’s ending are different, and they are equally heart-wrenching plot twists. At one point in time Atonement was my favourite novel. The plot twist at the end was part of the reason why. The movie’s gorgeous soundtrack is part of the reason why too.

So those are my top four favourite plot twist novels. I would recommend anyone read these novels just for their amazing endings. Please go check out Rhey of Sunshine‘s blog as well for more books with plot twist endings!

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 25: A character who you can relate to the most

Hey everyone!

So it’s the weekends, and I’m here with another 30DBC. And today I’m here to talk about a character who I can relate to the most. What is so tricky about today’s challenge is that I thought it would be easy; I thought that when it came to sitting down and writing this one, I would have a character in mind, one at the very top of my head.

And I did have some immediate go to characters that I considered. Firstly, I considered Hermione Granger – ’cause she was my go to favourite female character for good reason, I saw a lot of her very obvious traits as my own. I considered Antoinette Cosway of Wide Sargasso Sea, as she had many traits regarding relationship and her affinity to her homeland that I found similar to myself. I even, for a point in time, considered Bella Swan of Twilight, because, face it, Meyers wrote her character as blandly as possible so that every teenage girl who read it could see herself in Bella Swan – Meyer’s description of Bella can be likened to fortune telling or palm reading – it can be interpreted in any way according to the reader. 

I didn’t relate well to people my age. Maybe the truth was that I didn’t relate well to people, period. Even my mother, who I was closer to than anyone else on the planet, was never in harmony with me, never on exactly the same page. Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.”- Twilight

Clary - Mortal InstrumentsThe easiest characters to consider as relatable are those of young adult series – mostly because their main function to their readers is to appear as relatable as possible. So they write about a teenage girl with brown hair and a shy demeanour until you get to know her – as that it is a vague enough and relevant enough representation of the mass of their readership. They write about a girl who loves books and music – ’cause it is evident that any teenage girl who is reading loves novels and maybe hopes to write them in the future and it is positively unheard of for a girl to not love some sort of music, the more obscure the better. Come on, you know what I’m talking about. The girl who thinks she’s average but hopes that everything thinks she’s beautiful and smart. Just add in some sassy lines and everyday routines – “Oh look! I eat cereal in the morning half-asleep and dreading school too!” It is the character deliberately created to be a mirror of the reader.Yet, at the same time it is terrible to suggest that the more vague the description of the character, the more prone they are to daily habits of normalcy, the more we feel they are like us. Shouldn’t we all be unique and therefore identify ourselves with those characters that are “uniquely” like us?

The difficulty with this challenge is that, at any point in time of reading a protagonist in a story, I have the habit of getting absolutely lost in their world, the friends they share, the hobbies they love and the goal they work towards.

Sometimes I find myself more than one type of person. One day I’m the outspoken and brash young heroine, the next the shy and hesitant loner that sits in the back of the class. I ask myself, how can I be more than one type of person? And maybe that’s the beauty of books. That you can be more than one type of person. And, I believe, any good book should reflect a protagonist that is relatable – no matter how flawed or deplorable they are, there needs to be some sort of resignation that you share some of their characteristics. It is the ability to prove to readers that even the most evil of individuals have a motive that we ourselves could have at any point in our future.

After careful consideration, and because I have the habit to slip into the character I read, I guess the characters I identify the most with are those that I am currently reading – as prosaic as that may sound. It’s usually the characters that I am currently sharing their experiences with that I empathise the most with, because they are currently in my immediate literary proximity. So, for today’s post, I shall be highlighting the character of …

Quentin “Q” Jacobsen from Paper Towns by John Green

PaperTowns2009_6AI rushed to finish this book by this week so I could write this. Quentin is the current character I attempted to put myself in his shoes, and it is kind of apt that I am writing about how relatable a character can be because the entire novel of Paper Towns centers on how much you can know a person and how much you can try to put yourself in the shoes of that person and understand how they feel.

If you’re unfamiliar with the story of Paper Towns, let me summarise it for you. Quentin has a childhood friend called Margo. They used to be great friends as kids but as they grew up they drifted apart into their own cliques, Margo in the popular clique, Quentin cast off into geekdom – you know the tried-and-true cliched fable. Then one night, Margo calls on Quentin to go on a night time revenge prank adventure with her. The next day she disappears for good. Quentin is then left to try to piece the clues Margo apparently left behind for him alone.

Let me first state that John Green characters are made to be relatable to any angst-ridden teen – if there were any go-to relatable characters out there, I suggest his books. Albeit many of the characters however are portrayed with far too much teenage tropes and stereotypes …

Personally I did not like Looking for Alaska because Alaska sounded like a total – well, yeah, you know what I’m getting at – Alaska was a facile representation of a college girl – drop-dead gorgeous body and a dirty suggestion that she was, under all the denim shorts and singlets, intelligent. Margo, in Paper Towns, is pretty much a clone of Alaska – the only difference is I believe Margo is more refreshingly pensive about the universe around her, more mature, and nuanced.

Likewise, you can attempt to juxtapose Quentin with Miles from Looking for Alaska – but where as Miles appears to be a lot more passive and flat as a character, I feel that Quentin has a lot more going for him.

I will now list down the reasons why I relate to Quentin before I digress even further into my rant as to why I just fail to appreciate Looking for Alaska the way other John Green fans may.

Firstly, Quentin appears and often acts quietly complaisant. Whereas his friends, including Margo, are all fuel and fire, Quentin is that easily overlooked dripping trail of gasoline. The way he reacts to a lot of the situations in the novel are how I would probably react to things in real life. On the surface one may assume that he is accepting of everything, but within him he is constantly mulling over situations past, present and future. And yes, I accept the flaws in this parallel of our personalities too. While he obligingly goes along with a lot of Margo’s plans and the plans of his friends, he is also inclined to passively submitting himself to their consequences. And I feel like I do that a lot too.

He also prefers routine to something unfamiliar. I could have easily chosen Margo to identify with since we both have this love for mystery, storytelling and planning and we’re both girls. Heck, her black notebook is terrifyingly familiar to me. I, too, used to write stories based on my real life friends when I was ten-years-old – long story short, we all had ponies. But no, unlike Margo, I love planning a lot but I’m terrified to take the initiative to do the things I plan. I would not be able to just runaway like her, or spontaneously befriend security guards, or sneak into Seaworld. So, there are a lot more things I have in common with Quentin than her.

Next, when Quentin sets his eyes on an end goal, he is unrelentingly resolute, maybe even stubbornly so. One part of the novel even alludes Quentin as Captain Ahab chasing the white whale – Margo being Moby-Dick. And I admit I have the tendency to be this way too far too often in my life. When he believes that he is one step closer in completing the quest to finding Margo, Quentin’s mindset narrows, nothing else matter except finding the rest of the clues. I relate to that as well as I am often times easily disappointed when my friends don’t get on-board with my crazy schemes.

Similarly, I feel that I have the tendency to direct myself into tasks almost obsessively too. Playing Sherlock Holmes, trying to scavenge for answers, or even just creating elaborate fantasy worlds in my head is an obsession that I can see myself getting into far too voluntarily. Similarly, I have the tendency to snap at people or get frustrated at them if they ever stand in the way of my goal the same way Quentin snaps at Ben over the phone for not being just as absorbed as he was in finding Margo.

I sometimes have impossibly high standards for the people who exist around me. So I accept the fact that I have many of Quentin’s flaws:

“You know your problem, Quentin? You keep expecting people not to be themselves. I mean, I could hate you for being massively unpunctual and for never being interested in anything other than Margo Roth Spiegelman, and for, like, never asking me about how it’s going with my girlfriend – but I don’t give a shit, man, because you’re you.” 
― John GreenPaper Towns

Lastly, Quentin’s obsession in finding meaning is a trait that I am far too common with. Quentin’s stream of consciousness involves him finding connections with his everyday life with his quest to find Margo. Agreeably, it is natural for any character to attempt to connect the things they see in their day to day life with their current thoughts and obsessions, but Quentin does this with almost everything. He considers it in a constant, infinite loop. He rereads Songs of Myself by Walt Whitman again and again and again.

And frankly, once I find a poem I love, I have the terrible habit of scrutinising it laboriously too. I also have the habit of trying to connect the things I learn with the things I currently experience – and this is part of how I remember them for exams, and part of how I just drive myself absolutely insane. That one semester I took a Literature and Madness course I almost drove myself insane. Like Quentin, I feel like a sponge absorbing knowledge and then trying to process it as logically as possible 24/7.

Therefore, for all these reasons, I identify and relate to Quentin. I relate to how he chooses to observe the way people interact around him, how things appear around him, his desperation to be accepted and liked even though he would rather appear to not crave it so much, his apathy towards the idea of prom, his determination to find the answer to a long line of breadcrumbs, and an affinity of connecting images with meaning.

I am sure that once I finish this book and move onto the next book I will feel like that future character is the one I relate to the most. But for now, I am content to say that I can relate to Quentin “Q” Jacobsen.

So, to find out more relatable characters, again, check out Rhey of Sunshine‘s wonderful blog. And I shall catch you tomorrow for a book that changed my opinion of something.

Till next time,

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 23: A book you wanted to read for a long time but still haven’t

Hello readers!

So for today’s 30DBC I’ll be going over the books I have on my to-read list. I decided to include more than one book today, ’cause frankly I have a lot of books that I want to read. Also, I don’t think I can fill in an entire review on a book I haven’t read yet.

So here’s a list of 5 books I still want to read, but haven’t gotten to yet:

1. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams

I watched the movie of this and I so want to read this book as well. It just sounds like a book I need in my read list. This novel is a comedy sci-fi.

The book begins with contractors arriving at Arthur Dent‘s house. They wish to demolish his house in order to build a bypass. Arthur’s best friend, Ford Prefect, arrives, warning him of the end of the world. The two head to a bar, where the locals question Ford’s knowledge of the Apocalypse. An alien race, known as Vogons, show up to demolish the planet, and Arthur and Ford manage to get on their ship.” – Wiki

After that Arthur is sent on a reluctant journey across the galaxy in an attempt to find a planet, Magrathea, known for selling luxury planets.

2. Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? by Philip K. Dick

I have definitely been absolutely hooked on finding the perfect sci-fi book lately, and I feel like this book might be it. It has had great ratings and reviews so far so it sounds so promising – plus that title is amazing.

A final, apocalyptic, world war has killed millions, driving entire species into extinction and sending the majority of mankind off-planet. Those who remain, venerate all remaining examples of life, and owning an animal of your own is both a symbol of status and a necessity. For those who can’t afford an authentic animal, companies build incredibly realistic simulacrae: horses, birds, cats, sheep . . . even humans. – Goodreads

3. A Game of Thrones (A Song of Ice and Fire) by George R.R. Martin

I’ve only managed to watch three seasons of Game of Thrones and once I’ve taken such a long break from the series it feels like such a task to try and get back into it. So what’s my ultimate solution? Meh, just read the books instead – said no one but me in this kind of society. I’m thinking of whether to read it or listen to the audio books.

In the novel, recounting events from various points of view, Martin introduces the plot-lines of the noble houses of Westeros, the Wall, and the Targaryens.” – Wiki

4. Catch-22 by Joseph Heller

If there is any book that I’ve wanted to read for a very long time, it’s this one. And this would have probably been the book I would have written about if I had to choose only one.

At the heart of Catch-22 resides the incomparable, malingering bombardier, Yossarian, a hero endlessly inventive in his schemes to save his skin from the horrible chances of war. His problem is Colonel Cathcart, who keeps raising the number of missions the men must fly to complete their service. Yet if Yossarian makes any attempts to excuse himself from the perilous missions that he is committed to flying, he is trapped by the Great Loyalty Oath Crusade, the bureaucratic rule from which the book takes its title: a man is considered insane if he willingly continues to fly dangerous combat missions, but if he makes the necessary formal request to be relieved of such missions, the very act of making the request proves that he is sane and therefore ineligible to be relieved.” – Goodreads

I’ve read a chapter of it during my school days, found it hilarious and thought-provoking, but I did not have enough time to read the rest. Till now, I keep having it at the back of my mind to read, but just never got to it. It was always just “Someday”.

5. Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut

I’ve heard so many amazing things about this book. I really want to catch this one someday.

Kurt Vonnegut’s absurdist classic Slaughterhouse-Five introduces us to Billy Pilgrim, a man who becomes unstuck in time after he is abducted by aliens from the planet Tralfamadore. In a plot-scrambling display of virtuosity, we follow Pilgrim simultaneously through all phases of his life, concentrating on his (and Vonnegut’s) shattering experience as an American prisoner of war who witnesses the firebombing of Dresden.” – Goodreads

Yes, it’s another sci-fi kind of book. It is also apparently quite similar to Catch-22 in the sense that it takes place around the Second World War and offers a “deeply funny plea against butchery in the service of authority”. 

To check out more books on a to-read list, visit Rhey of Sunshine‘s blog as we are conquering this 30 Day Book Challenge together, however take note that the most recent challenge of hers may not be out at the same time as mine due to our different working schedules and that she is also feeling sick lately. Also, let me know if you’ve read any of these books and if you would recommend them!

Catch you tomorrow!

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 20: Favorite romance book

Hi everybody!

tumblr_l1ftgsWThc1qzczc7o1_500So for today’s 30DBC, it’s all about the <3. What’s so difficult about this one is that I’m not the type of reader who deliberately picks out a novel for the romance.

When I think “romance book” I just instantly picture a Fabio muscle man with a ripped white shirt holding onto the waist of an almost-fainted-big-bosom lady – and imaginary wind. Or what Joey from Friends would call a “dirty book” (you know, that episode with Rachel’s “porn” book?)

Romance isn’t really something that I read – or really watch. It’s very difficult for me to be a hopeless romantic, really. So if you want a less cynical romantic take on the favourite romance book challenge, please check out Rhey of Sunshine‘s blog. I believe she would have a more befitting response – and choice. I’m just terrible about gushing about love. I think I’ve read more romance fanfics than books. I can always recommend some awesome Harry Potter romance fanfics easily. But books – I’m struggling.

But I tried, I really tried – so I won’t call the one I chose as a love story, per say, but this novel definitely has more romance than the normal book I read …

The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

The-Fault-in-Our-StarsThis is honestly the first John Green book I read, and I’ll be honest, it took me a while to actually start it. I used to start reading the first chapter of Hazel Lancaster in the support group and then stop after a few paragraphs. But one day I just decided to really push myself and just read it. And then I finished it in two days.

If you haven’t heard of TFIOS, you just might be living with Patrick Star, a.k.a. under a rock. Everybody’s been talking about the movie coming out – regardless of whether it be in absolute “the feels”/”my heart” mode or cynically, saying “Oh it’s just another A Walk to Remember” or parodying the “it’s a metaphor” scene with the cigarettes (I personally find it hilarious though).

So, this story is about Hazel Lancaster who was diagnosed with Stage 4 Thyroid cancer. Because of the metastasis in her lungs, she has to have an oxygen tank to aid her breathing. One day, at her support group which takes place at the basement of a church (‘the Literal Heart of Jesus’), she meets Augustus Waters, a fighter of cancer himself – and that is where their weird friendship turned love begins.

largeI guess the reason why I chose this couple is that they are – bearable. And almost normal. Their love is understated. And you can tell that by the way they say “I love you”:

Maybe ‘okay’ will be our ‘always” 
― John GreenThe Fault in Our Stars

They don’t have an amazing cliche first date, they just watch V for Vendetta on the couch. They don’t talk about how much they love each other – that much, they instead share in their fears and perspective of life and death, and their love for a book called, An Imperial Affliction (which I actually think is a cringeworthy book name).

And I almost aww-ed when Augustus planned a Dutch-themed picnic for Hazel.

And I almost aww-ed even more when they went to Amsterdam (in an attempt to meet the author of Imperial Affliction) and went on their date at Oranjee.

But it really wasn’t about those moments that solidified my love for the two. ‘Cause a novel can easily describe a couple at their best and have it seem as though it were a fairytale, a happily ever after.

tumblr_md94lkqjzD1r9p0bbo2_250I think the moment I loved the most (in the most heart-aching way) was when Augustus called Hazel to pick him up at the gas station in the middle of the night. That moment, Augustus was at his weakest point, he was absolutely helpless – I can’t really explain how that moment impacted me – wait …

Okay, have you ever had that moment when a person you love is at their worse moment? You suddenly realise, they’re so human and they’re so vulnerable and they absolutely release all guards that they had up about themselves, all their pride, all their smiles and bravery, and you can see it screaming in their eyes: they need you.

That’s what that moment was like. Hazel realised Augustus was not “Augustus the Roman Emperor” anymore, he was just a teenager, he was just “Gus”; he was absolutely defenseless like a fetus – that’s the best metaphor I could come up with; a fetus in the sense that you just did not know how to help it when it cried out to you, coated in its own abject desolation.

And, last but not least, the reason why I loved this book was because of the experiences I could share with it. Certain aspects of the novel, even though I have never even come close to experiencing what cancer would be like or what it would be like to be around someone with cancer, were just relatable. At the end of the day I loved The Fault in Our Stars not because it was a romance book, but because it was essentially a book about so many other things. And to just narrow it into that small pigeonhole of teenage, angst, love … it’s just completely missing the target, it’s completely missing the target by shooting a bowling ball, backwards, into the football stands, causing a headlining “mexican wave” accident.

Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.” 
― John GreenThe Fault in Our Stars

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Well, I hope I did not sound too much of a John Green fangirl here. The honest truth is that I am not. But the other honest truth is that I really did love this book a lot and I loved the way Green wrote it. And, yes, I can’t wait to watch the movie for it. ‘Cause I think it will be amazing. I will just have to prepare a lot of tissues.

Also, here’s me sharing the song I listened to on loop while reading the book, cause face it, everyone has a “dream” TFIOS theme song: Backseat Serenade (Acoustic) – All Time Low. Mine’s just perfect cause the word “hand grenade” is in there.

Well, till tomorrow, guys!

Till next time,

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 18: A book that disappointed you

Happy weekend, guys!

So for today’s 30DBC, I’m going to go over a book that disappointed me. Said book is:

Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card

9780812550702_custom-14b6b3e2b8be027acc868fa0aba0670be8900168-s6-c30I first decided to endeavour reading this novel after watching the film with the same name.

It is set in future Earth where mankind’s existence is threatened by the presence of the Formics, otherwise known as “Buggers”, an ant-like alien species. So to prepare for the third invasion (as it has been dubbed), the International Fleet (IF) train children and seeks out possible trainees to lead an army. Ender is the third child in a society where families are under a strict two-child policy. His family specially requested to have Ender after their two children showed a lot of promise in Battle School – however their first child, Peter, turned out too violent, and their second child, Valentine, too empathic. Ender is supposedly the “baby bear” of the fairytale trope, a.k.a. “just right”.

The rest of the novel follows Ender as he is chosen to go through further training, through difficult tasks and games in Command School.

I was excited to read the novel after watching the book because there were so many interesting concepts that I hoped the book explored more of. Also, after watching an Ender’s Game spoilercast by RoosterTeeth, where they gushed about how much better the book apparently was, I thought that it was inevitable that I would read it.

At first, it seemed alright, there were more moments at the Battle School and I was excited to get into the mind of Ender – but after a couple of chapters I found myself disappointed. Maybe it was the expectation that was given from the film itself – they made it appear that Ender was a boy genius, but the way Scott Card wrote Ender was less remarkable. There was some attempt to be logical and reasoning, but it appeared to be a whole less impressive than I hoped it would be.

The rest of the book was therefore a letdown. The only moments I cherished the most and found the most intriguing was the forum speeches and new relationship that Peter and Valentine had on earth which was not in the movie itself.

Upon finishing the book, I had to come to a conclusion as to why I felt disappointed in the book – and I came to this conclusion.

Firstly, this was a book that was released in 1985, where the technology in the book must have seemed far more impressive back then but has (to some extent) come to fruition today. This includes the large communication network which Scott Card talks about on Earth and the forums present on this network which, today, has become the Internet. There was the moment when Ender hacked into the Commander School system and that is something very realisable today. Hence, first and foremost, reading about technology that was only a vision back then probably takes the glory out of the Ender’s Game universe.

Secondly, this book is probably targeted to a younger audience and, like many books when we read when we were younger, it would have definitely far more enrapturing when I was thirteen than now. The writing is good enough for a teenager but as an adult, there is a lot to lust after in terms of explanations of the universe that surrounds Ender’s Game.

Lastly, I watched it as a movie before I read it as a book. Personally, I loved the movie. I loved the soundtrack of the movie and the amazing special effects of it. They made the universe and Ender appear larger than life. This is a lot different from the book where Ender is still very much a child, he still has many vulnerable moments – however Ender in the film appeared like a boy who had everything sorted out – every minute, every action. I suppose I wished the movie took more scenes in, but in terms of cutting them out – they did remove the more complicated, dull stuff, like the dozens of rounds of anti-gravity war simulations versus other groups that I practically glazed over in the book.

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It is for these, very reasonable, reasons why I was disappointed when I finally sat down and decided to read Ender’s Game. So, I’ll be impartial here.

It may not have been because the book was a failure – cause I definitely doubt that. It was just the circumstances in which I read it that made it less than spectacular to me.

Personally, I feel like the book is something completely lost to me. I’ve lost the perfect moment to read it, and therefore I feel I can never fully appreciate it the way it was at that time of first publication. Instead, I will just appreciate the film for what the book inevitably became. So if you like sci-fi books, I still suggest you try reading it – but maybe before watching the film.

So, last but not least, check out Rhey of Sunshine‘s blog to see the book that disappointed her. And I’ll catch you tomorrow for my favourite book turned into a movie – which could very well be Ender’s Game, ’cause Ender’s Game was a good book to movie adaptation (in my opinion, and because I did it the opposite way around, i.e. movie then book) – but I won’t do that to you readers, i.e. Ender’s Game two days in a row.

Till next time!

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 16: Favorite female character

Hey there, readers!

For today’s 30DBC challenge, I will be covering my favourite female character.

Now, while it’s evident that I prefer my male characters as absolutely cynical as possible, when I look back at the female characters I have read, I always consider them – first – with nostalgia, then, with some level of veneration.

Firstly, I can attest that I have never admired the women in classics or early literature -it’s like trying to admire a housewife written by a man. How can you admire a woman who is either a saint or a sinner? So I immediately rejected those women as favourites. Shakespeare’s Juliet was spoilt and lacked resilience and rationality. I present to you this apt gif:

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BTT3So, let’s move on, otherwise this post will be about how there are no decent characters written before the 18th century.

Hence, secondly, I personally find myself blessed to not have known that such “birdbrain women” existed until I began studying my literature course. Instead, my teachers, from early on, have always introduced me to individualistic women, women who strived to be altruistic and audacious. Women like Leslie Burke from Bridge to Terabithia (on the right) and Alanna of Trebond from The Song of the Lioness Quartet. It was then natural for me to pursue those women in the books I read later on, women like Violet Baudelaire from A Series of Unfortunate Events, Sabriel from Sabriel and Lyra Silvertongue from The Golden Compass.

However, I will disclaim that my literature studies did not introduce me to another sort of bravery in women which I admire (maybe even more). It is those women who do not physically rebel against societal boundaries, w8TxICaDIgkE3wDPhPtGhGyL0Jcbut those who struggle in the midst of it, despite many adversaries. Those who see the struggles of the marginalised and seek to find some sort of salvation amidst their pain.Women such as Sethe from Beloved (on the left), Esther Greenwood from The Bell Jar, Clarissa Dalloway from Mrs Dalloway and the formidable unknown protagonist of The Yellow Wallpaper. These women taught me that you do not need to wield a sword and a bow to be a BAMF – you can wield words and kindness and inner strength as well. Power comes from more than just physically action.

And it appears here that I have listed down more than one woman to whom I love dearly – and I guess, I have to admit, that this introduction played that sort of function. For, when it comes to female literature, my heart goes out to all the female characters who seek to have a voice in society and they were all deserving, in my view, of a means to express their anguish, their joy and their personal endeavours.

But, as for my favourite, I will have to choose a female character who will always have a place in my heart since I was a young,a woman who wields both a weapon and wisdom, one which I actually dressed up as for my school’s “Dress as a Book Character” Day – Time-Turner, wand, frizzy hair and all.

Hermione Jean Granger in The Harry Potter Series by J.K. Rowling

Hermione-OOTP-hermione-granger-1354673-428-285Yes, I finally did it, I chose Harry Potter for one of my challenges – or more specifically, Hermione Granger. But after some deliberation I thought I would do myself serious injustice if I did not pick her today.

Hermione has a soft place in my heart because I honestly see myself as her sometimes, the same way that J.K. Rowling herself saw Hermione as a(n exaggerated) version of her eleven-year-old self.

Hermione is, first and foremost, a girl who did not fit in but desperately wanted to. She was muggle-born, and a know-it-all, which meant she faced prejudice from both sides of the fence. She was neither liked by the Slytherins nor Harry and his Gryffindor friends. She was an outsider from the very beginning. And I believe that is what first makes her special: she understood from the get-go what it was like to be not wanted nor appreciated. And, despite her snobbish persona in the beginning of The Philosopher’s Stone, as a reader, it was easy to empathise with that moment during Halloween when Harry and Ron discovered she would go to the bathrooms and cry because she had no friends.

Being unwanted in Hogwarts from the very beginning, shaped Hermione. If she had been loved by both sides of the fence, she could have easily turned out like Malfoy, or worse, Voldemort. Despite the scorn she got from others, she was still kind (in the best way she knew how to be), she still raised her hand in class to answer questions, and she continued to seek friendship in books. She was always in the pursuit of knowledge and the fact that she spent hours in the library made her love her even more.

Yet, at the same time, Hermione was a character who never purely sought out knowledge, otherwise she would have easily ended up in Ravenclaw. It was evident that Rowling intended for there to be much more to Hermione than someone who was an intellectual. And I believe it is this character development in Hermione which solidified her as one of my favourites.

SNN1306A-682_802041aShe hated women who abused their power, like Rita Skeeter, Umbridge and Bellatrix Lestrange. And so she fashioned herself apart from them. She also saw the potential in those who were less appreciated and overlooked.

Harry rarely was the one to first befriend the secondary characters – it was usually Hermione who did so. She found friendship with Dobby, Ginny, Neville and Luna before Harry ever did. She was also the pioneer of many plans that sought to change the world for the better, such as SPEW and Dumbledore’s Army.

So, that is my Harry Potter rant over and done with. And, because this gives me the opportunity to share my favourite Harry Potter band, Ministry of Magic, here is one of their songs, Ascendio, that you can check out. 😀

And there you go, because I love her fantasyuniverse and the person she is in it, I chose Hermione as my favourite female character. So, head over to Rhey of Sunshine‘s blog to check out her favourite female character, and I will catch you guys tomorrow for my favourite quote from a book!

Till then,

cumuloq ❤

30DBC Day 15: Favorite male character

Hi everyone!

We’re at the halfway point of the 30DBC, and today I’ll be tackling my favourite male character. For today, it is actually very difficult for me to discuss this “favourite male character”, and if you realise who it is, then you’ll realise why. So don’t mind me as I render myself speechless at some points in this blog post. But, I’m sure (for those who have read Fight Club or watched the film) you will understand why …

The Narrator in Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk

fight_club_norton_5The Narrator of Fight Club remains nameless throughout the novel for many specific reasons, one of them I will not spoil here – I refuse to spoil here (even though a lot of other descriptions of the Narrator may decide to reveal why). Let’s just say that you will need to read the book to find out why.

One of the more straightforward, and effective, reasons why the Narrator is nameless is because he is a representative of all of us, the collective average, everyday working man. His voice is that of the average, his routine is that of the average and he carries with him the frank and bitter truth that we are all part of a capitalistic society.

So, with all this man’s negativity, why do I love him as a character?

There are many reasons why I love the society-and-self-deprecating man that is the Narrator. He is an insomniac, depressed, attends help groups with various aliases, befriends a complete psycho named Tyler Durden who forces him to push the boundaries of his boring life, and makes soap from the fat of rich, vain women and sells it back to them.

The Narrator hits rock bottom and then co-creates (with Tyler Durden) the infamous (you did not hear it from me) Fight Club and then, the larger-scale Project Mayhem (which takes very literally the phrase: “watching the world burn”).

But – between all these crazy events, the reason why I love the Narrator is, first and foremost, his dry humor – one that cuts through all the poetics of literature, the illusions of day-to-day life and just punches the reader in the face, like a well-intentioned insult – like the true meaning of Fight Club. Many times I found myself laughing for the wrong reasons while reading Fight Club.

You are not your job, you’re not how much money you have in the bank. You are not the car you drive. You’re not the contents of your wallet. You are not your fucking khakis. You are all singing, all dancing crap of the world.”

Simultaneously, while appreciating the humor, I love how The Narrator speaks a truth which society is all familiar with but never consciously aware of.

You buy furniture. You tell yourself, this is the last sofa I will ever need in my life. Buy the sofa, then for a couple years you’re satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you’ve got your sofa issue handled. Then the right set of dishes. Then the perfect bed. The drapes. The rug. Then you’re trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you.”

Thanks to The Narrator, I can never go into Ikea with the same sentiments any more. Now, when I enter the doors and see all the perfectly modeled room cubicles, the inviting bed and the white shelves with the same, standardized books, when I find myself aspiring to have a room just like that, I am reminded of Fight Club and it really puts a damper to my excitement – maybe for the better.

It reminds me, all of us aspire to have that particular room, we all buy the exact same, cheap, mass-produced furniture – and sadly, even the same books (every shelf with a copy of the bestsellers, Harry Potter, an atlas, a dictionary, a bible …) and, at the end of the day, once we all assemble our Ikea products in our homes, feeling exceptionally proud of ourselves, we don’t realise it – our homes are all carbon copies of one another. And, unintentionally maybe, society has done this to us – made us predictable. We think we’re original and unique –

“You are not special. You’re not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You’re the same decaying organic matter as everything else. We’re all part of the same compost heap. We’re all singing, all dancing crap of the world.”

And maybe I’m now admiring Palahniuk’s writing and thought process, but to admire the character of the Narrator is, in part, to admire the author behind it.

And now, I’ll move on to the movie version of The Narrator, played by Edward Norton. Norton does The Narrator a lot of justice, he acts and appears just as tired (like literally, the Narrator suffers from insomnia) and exhausted of his life (and depression), and his tone is equally cynical of where society is heading.

If you’re not much of a reader, then maybe you want to check out the movie, it also stars Brad Pitt and Helena Bonham Carter – but I would still suggest reading the book to get the full effect. The ending is also different from the movie. Here is a trailer to get a good idea of what the narrator is like:

And, again, as I ponder on what else I’d like to share about The Narrator, I find myself self-censoring my appreciation for him – let’s just say I didn’t expect and was in awe with the person he became. There are so many other reasons why I love the Narrator which I can’t quite speak of. Let’s just say that there is so much more to him than just an everyday man, and the revelation of this puts into question whether normalcy is really that normal at all, that maybe we are walking contradictions, walking paradoxes. And – and that is why I love the Narrator. Fullstop.

So, once again, be sure to stop by Rhey of Sunshine‘s blog for her favourite male character. And I’ll catch you tomorrow for my favourite female character.

Till next time,

cumuloq ❤